{"id":2674,"date":"2024-01-18T21:07:54","date_gmt":"2024-01-19T02:07:54","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lea-lee.love\/?p=2674"},"modified":"2024-10-31T22:36:02","modified_gmt":"2024-11-01T03:36:02","slug":"crazed-with-a-cyclone-of-emotion","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/?p=2674","title":{"rendered":"The Obvious Choice that Will Forever Change My Life"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"fb-root\"><\/div>\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">That message was left on my phone. I think Mistress Lea is signaling me to contact her. I threw together a brief email:<\/p><figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"https:\/\/lea-lee.love\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/phone.mp3\"><\/audio><\/figure><div class=\"wp-block-group\"><div class=\"wp-block-group__inner-container is-layout-constrained wp-block-group-is-layout-constrained\"><div class=\"wp-block-columns is-layout-flex wp-container-core-columns-is-layout-9d6595d7 wp-block-columns-is-layout-flex\"><div class=\"wp-block-column is-layout-flow wp-block-column-is-layout-flow\" style=\"flex-basis:100%\"><blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\"><p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Lea,<br>You must have known you would hear from me again at some point. I want to see you again, or at least talk. My dad probably told&nbsp; you about the software project that ate a decade of my life (<a href=\"https:\/\/iatsoftware.net\">https:\/\/iatsoftware.net<\/a>). It&#8217;s flopped but makes a hell of a resume. So I&#8217;m applying for jobs recently and, other than that, just trying to get out enough to remember what it feels like to understand that there&#8217;s a whole world out there. It&#8217;s proven nearly impossible to meet people just going to the store and getting my hair done and running other errands. I joined a gym and hired a personal trainer to give me a routine, but that hasn&#8217;t materialized yet. So, very, very, very much so, I would be grateful for your time as a touching-base with the rest of reality experience. I remember calling you and talking for forty-five minutes, barely knowing you, lying sideways on the bed with my head hanging back off the end, back when I was too old to not know how to talk to women. Given the past, I couldn&#8217;t bring myself to pick up the phone.<br>So, yes, I&#8217;d love you as a friend or even just someone to have lunch with every four months. I&#8217;ve had something on my mind for a number of years. That&#8217;s not an attempt at humor. My Lea, the Lea I fell in love with, is still in my mind. She&#8217;s a knot of wishes that I&#8217;m not at home with even having, filled in illusion only, and fantasies of what you and a life with you might be like. She&#8217;s become enormously compartmentalized part of my personality, so much so that she has opinions and feelings for me that differ from my own. I can feel her mouth hanging open a her eyes shining with eagerness right now. Anyway. There&#8217;s something that I want very much to untangle, something that&#8217;s troubled me for years. I want to know how similar you are to her. Because I love her. And because I&#8217;m haunted by seeing her when I saw you, those times I came to your office.<br>So, do me a favor and please send me your number and a good time to call or just a time and place to meet. I&#8217;ll meet you at ODU. Just place your tea order. And it&#8217;ll please you to hear that, in addition to sending you roses, I&#8217;ve been stalking you online too. I found a site with your academic publications. Aesop&#8217;s Fables, Lea.<br>Something something,<br>Michael<\/p><\/blockquote><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Something like that. I&#8217;d love Lea more. Life would be more comfortable, Lea would not love me. If I could not get a programming job, Lea would be content with something more menial. Feminization might progress with Lea. It&#8217;s a hard decision. Might as well do it, I figure. I&#8217;ll sleep on it over the weekend.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;d love Lea more. Life would be more comfortable, Lea would not love me. If I could not get a programming job, Lea would be content with something more menial. Feminization might progress with Lea. It&#8217;s a hard decision. Might as well do it, I figure. 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