{"id":4090,"date":"2024-10-29T02:01:55","date_gmt":"2024-10-29T07:01:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lea-lee.love\/?p=4090"},"modified":"2024-10-29T02:01:55","modified_gmt":"2024-10-29T07:01:55","slug":"the-last-little-bit","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/?p=4090","title":{"rendered":"The last little bit"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"fb-root\"><\/div>\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">The neighbors . . . as I knew, it wasn&#8217;t my baseline level of psychosis. Starting in September, things really started to die down. I picked up a programming book but couldn&#8217;t spend more than four hours at it for four nights straight without melting down. My last good job opportunity, confirmed ruined by another neighbor, the first interview? I fell asleep on the sofa at 10:30am and the computer woke me up. The fourth? It felt my life was unraveling. I couldn&#8217;t remember what I did with each day, at the end, things were so jumbled. My neighbors fed the stress for years.<\/p><p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Stress tolerance. I made an appointment with the shrink at the LPRN&#8217;s to see if  he has any ideas. The pills are plainly off.<\/p><p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Following the path with Elaine, as steered by my emotions and desires for that half of the week, seems the smart thing to do. I&#8217;ve given you what amounts to one reason and you won&#8217;t accept it. I&#8217;m very lonely and Elaine makes things worse, if anything. Her little displays through the glass that I could be with her make me feel like a primitive animal at the zoo and, remembering them later, like nothing being cut into slices.<\/p><p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">I see the shrink on the 14th, Hopefully, the new antipsychotic will be in place for me to apply for jobs in January.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p> I made an appointment with the shrink at the LPRN&#8217;s to see if  he has any ideas. 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