{"id":4747,"date":"2025-06-23T20:58:12","date_gmt":"2025-06-24T01:58:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lea-lee.love\/?p=4747"},"modified":"2025-06-23T21:03:45","modified_gmt":"2025-06-24T02:03:45","slug":"for-lea","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/?p=4747","title":{"rendered":"For Lea"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Indignance, anger forthwith drowning sacred needs, desires, all<\/p>\n\n

    Wished for with prayers fervent, so long that my own<\/p>\n\n

    Heart has without sorrow absconded with my hopelessness<\/p>\n\n

   And now, these desires are given me and I sneer, dismissing<\/p>\n\n

   Divinity as a task. Then I grasp my own dreams, lying before me<\/p>\n\n

   It is my desires I pursue when desires are steering my course through life<\/p>\n\n

  And I see that all fault lies with ignoring dreams long ago forgotten for<\/p>\n\n

  Peace. My own desires are not for the pursuit, cast no wan light as a<\/p>\n\n

  Guiding star. They are food for Mistress’s flame, hot vanity.<\/p>\n\n

  Give me or deny me, toy with me, embolden yourself.<\/p>\n\n

  Should my Mistress use my desires as toys or as tools for her to have all<\/p>\n\n

  That my Mistress’s hungry, always possessive heart, a smoldering heaven,<\/p>\n\n

  Desires for whate’er passing whim, it’s senseless to reason that I have<\/p>\n\n

  Paths for acquiring desires. Mistress owns me. Belonging to her as<\/p>\n\n

  Plaything — foundation of dreams of merit. Desires are met through Mistress.<\/p>\n\n

  Telling her all, each weighed for deserving and worth, merit, knowing<\/p>\n\n

  Each is fodder for uses that my Mistress sees she prefers. In<\/p>\n\n

  Truth, in this truth,  a sacred forgotten dream is now given life.<\/p>\n\n

  And, seeing desires are born for her, it is as it always was.<\/p>\n\n

  Being a mere possession, plaything. Mistress shows me still the simple forever<\/p>\n\n

  Permanence that is our truth.<\/p><\/div><\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":4748,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_eb_attr":"","_vp_format_video_url":"","_vp_image_focal_point":[],"footnotes":""},"categories":[16],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4747","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-love-poems","latest_post"],"rttpg_featured_image_url":{"full":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",2912,1664,false],"landscape":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",2912,1664,false],"portraits":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",2912,1664,false],"thumbnail":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",150,86,false],"medium":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",600,343,false],"large":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",848,485,false],"post-slider-thumb-size":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",330,190,false],"post-category-slider-size":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",330,189,false],"1536x1536":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",1536,878,false],"2048x2048":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",2048,1170,false],"vp_sm":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",500,286,false],"vp_md":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",800,457,false],"vp_lg":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",1280,731,false],"vp_xl":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",1920,1097,false],"vp_sm_popup":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",500,286,false],"vp_md_popup":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",800,457,false],"vp_xl_popup":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",1920,1097,false],"kalon-pro-recent-post":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",262,150,false],"kalon-pro-slider":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",887,507,false],"kalon-pro-without-sidebar":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",805,460,false],"kalon-pro-with-sidebar":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",807,461,false],"kalon-pro-schema":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",105,60,false],"woocommerce_thumbnail":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",300,171,false],"woocommerce_single":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",600,343,false],"woocommerce_gallery_thumbnail":["https:\/\/elaine.baby\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/06\/AdobeStock_976809690.jpeg",100,57,false]},"rttpg_author":{"display_name":"Fate Caudwell","author_link":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/?author=1"},"rttpg_comment":0,"rttpg_category":"Love Poems<\/a>","rttpg_excerpt":null,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4747","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4747"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4747\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4759,"href":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4747\/revisions\/4759"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/4748"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4747"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4747"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/elaine.baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4747"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}